Enough Is Enough

being driven insane

webzdebs — Tue, 02 Jun 2009 19:28:14 +0000

Give me a cigarette, seriously – either that or something to eliveate the pain! Today my mother slowly picked away at everything i was doing and made me feel like crap!

Help!!!

5 weeks smoke free – what an achievement

webzdebs — Mon, 01 Jun 2009 09:59:30 +0000

I know that it probably doesn’t seem like it should be a huge deal but to us it definitely is. We have remained smoke free for 5 weeks now, and they have been filled with cravings and hard situations to adjust to but we have did it and can hold our heads high that for the last 5 weeks we have not had a cigarette.

On another note, I think I have replaced smoking with drinking tea, which is slightly better for my health is an addiction none the less and I am going to keep an eye on it and make sure it’s not getting ridiculous otherwise all the money i have saved from smoking i will be using for electricity to heat up the kettle LOL.

So far we have saved £100 from not smoking for 5 weeks collectively, singly we have each saved up £50 – although my money acts like a credit to pay for the Medela Swing Breast Pump i bought at week 1, although it was so worth it, it makes expressing milk so lovely and painless and quick and easy. I have another 3 weeks of money left to go before i get to buy myself treats again with money i save from not smoking

still going strong

webzdebs — Thu, 14 May 2009 15:15:52 +0000

well the trip to town with my mother wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be so I wasn’t left dying for a cigarette. What has been quite difficult is how I have felt like I am drifting from a few of my friends that I regarded as very close. I know that everyone naturally drifts apart with time and kids etc but this just feels plain weird.

On top of that yesterday I totally flipped out with the other half about the fact that he took over an hour and a half to get dinner. It sounds really stupid I know but it meant something to me, it felt like I was being put second which is why my last relationship broke down and he knows this!

I’m thinking that along with this new change of becoming smoke free it would also be a good time to think about other changes in my life….for example stopping doing or saying things just to please other people and not taking people’s crap anymore. I would really like to have the confidence to say and do what I want (obviously within reason) and I think I am going to make an effort to do so from now on.

On another positive note, since stopping smoking I have gained 1lb which is pretty good seeing as I was worried that nicotine was an appetite suppressant, hopefully I can start to loose the baby weight soon too.

Thinking today will be tough

webzdebs — Tue, 12 May 2009 08:56:25 +0000

I know it sounds awful but I am going into town with my mum today and I know I am going to come home all stressed out and wanting a cigarette. I just have to remember the reasons why I am doing this and remember that it is a good thing that my children don’t have me smoking anymore, my pets don’t have me smoking anymore.

So far my health has improved in the following ways; my blood pressure and pulse has returned to normal, my oxygen levels have returned to normal, there is no nicotine left in my body and carbon monoxide has been completely eliminated from my body, my bronchial tubes have relaxed making breathing easier and energy levels higher and my circulation has improved. Thats not even all of it so it’s all good! Why spoil it just for one cigarette?

Dave told me the other day that when we get married he is going to enjoy a really good cigar, I really don’t think I will personally as I think it would just start this smoking off again and I don’t want to start this again, I really am done with this habit – I hope for the rest of my lifetime.

tough day today

webzdebs — Sun, 10 May 2009 19:32:19 +0000

I am very very close to smoking right now, the only thing stopping me is sheer determination and thinking of how I don’t want to let my children down. I usually have these pangs throughout the day, they usually last 3-5 minutes but this whole day has been hell for the cravings!!

I think a cup of tea is needed

Quit Date ~ 27th April 2009 ~ One week on

webzdebs — Fri, 08 May 2009 16:13:30 +0000

One week on, well a week and a half later, and I feel like I am doing really well. I haven’t had any cigarettes since the 27th April 2009 and I hope I never will ever again. I feel really positive this time about quitting and I feel that everything is going well with quitting, the cravings come but they also pass too. I have added a page which has my reasons for quitting so that might give any other smokers who want to quit the strength to do so and for myself so I can see why I don’t want to have this deadly addiction anymore. I may add more pages but for now I feel this is enough.